swimming

I think I might have to go swimming. My shoulder is giving me grief now, I broke it when I was a kid and it has always been a bit weak but in January I was swinging a way to heavy school bag onto my back and something went a bit off. Since then it has been getting worse and now I can hardly use my left arm. I am thinking swimming might be a good option to try and fix it since I cant afford a physical therapist right now ( need one for my back too) so this could be the least expensive way to do it. Right now I am in my lazy boy enjoying a hot bag thing on it (not sure of the english word for it) and it has this fuzzy outer layer and it freaking stinks I tell you, it kinda stinks like Johnson´s baby wipes if my memory is correct.

Still waiting to see my doc for a fill, after the last time I went to the clinic I don´t want to go there again (was jabbed 6 times and was all bloody and bruised after it, it honestly took just under 40 minutes).

I so want to run, but I first need to get my back and body back in a semi good state. Why does one want to run sigh it seems like such a weird longing. When I was a kid I was a runner, I quit when I never got higher than second place! FACE MEET PALM how stupid was I and how I wish I could run.

olympics and future plans

I am a figure skating fan, I especially love the couples free style routine. Now I should be studying for an exam on Thursday but my attention span is less than zero. So instead I am jealously watching figure skating and wishing that it would have been an option when I was a kid.  I also just had to pick my jaw off the floor while watching the womens freestyle skiing, I kept holding my breath when the difficulty level got high and I was soooo bummed when Lydia Lassila fell in landing and placed thrid.

I got my lab results back last week from the latest blood test. It all came back good except well he said I could do with a bit more vit D. I was super happy hearing this since he had said my liver could still be recovering but seems to be back in order now.

I am dreaming big now. I want to move to Norway in two years time. I can work over there as an assistant pharmacist with my Bachelors degree and it would give me twice as much pay as I would get as a head pharmacist over here (masters degree). My kid was a bit apprehensive and now he seems to be more OK with it. I just dont want to live here anymore. The country is in shambles and you have to work yourself to the bone just to scrape by even if you have a degree. I want more for my kid. I want to have a better quality of living and Norway offers that. I have done lots of research on this matter for a few years and now I just want to do this. We would have to wait two years so that I can finish my Bachelors and my bf can finish his marine engineering degree. So lets hope this works out I need something to look forward to. The cost of living is 50% better in Norway than here (includes pay and home and all that jazz) and even though the cost of living in Sweden is 98% higher than here I would not want to go over there, we have family there and they love it but I just dont like the language. I know Danish and Norwegian is basically that but just way more understandeble so next year I will be going to health professional Norwegian language classes (crossing my fingers).

I have not been good with walking lately but I will.

take a break or not to...

I am very undecided about whether or not I should take a real break from blogging or if I should stick to it. I am waiting for my surgeon to be here again for another fill. I have had a war going on in my head since Christmas, I am basically and addict and I am trying to get back on the straight and narrow but it is hard, and I sometimes feel like if I don't have anything positive to report I shouldn't bother blogging but I know that isnt right, I really should blog just for me not focusing so much on whether it is a good/fun blog or not (still stuck in the weirdo momentum of what other people think about me). I also decided to skip buying candy this Saturday (Iceland has this strong tradition of gorging on candy on Saturdays and the addict I am have a hard time on those days) but I was craving something so I baked me some oatmeal-coconut-chocolate cookie (I used about half less sugar than the recipe said and also about half the chocolate chips) it´s not sugary sweet but it did kill the craving and I think it was a bit healthier than candy.

I went out for a small walk on Saturday (my hip didn't like it, guess its not recovered from the sprain in January) and I only managed 1,75 km or 1,1 miles. Then today I had to take my car to the shop for a repaint (they didnt do that good of a job on my bumpers last year (damage was not my fault lol)) I had to walk home, well I could have called a taxi or something but I wanted to walk home and I totaled 1,53 km or  0,95 miles and today my hip didn't complain all that much, but I can tell you that Converse aren't the best choice of foot ware to walk in hahaha