still unfilled

So I went to see my surgeon today as he is in Iceland for patient check ups. I was supposed to be filled somewhat if not all, but nope not even a single drop was put back in. He felt I was still too swollen and since I have a referral for a free x-ray fill he wants me to do just that next week and see him again when he comes during the holidays. So now my willpower will be put to the test. I am not loving the fact that I have already gained back almost 8 pounds after coming home from the hosptial but hey I should be happy I havent put on all that weight I lost.

So now I am a bit bummed and somewhat depressed since I have still no fill and I kinda feel like a part of me is missing in a way, because with the band I am so conscious about how and what I eat and now I am not.

And to add to that, my son found a lump the size of a blueberry in the back of his neck last night and I am going to take him to see a doctor, the hypochondriac me is not loving this, he also has a weird lump/swelling thing on the lower  part of his back/spine area. I am kinda anxious about this all but trying to be positive.