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Friday, December 28, 2012

totally forgot NSV

I have had these tights from a thick material for 1-2 years, I have never been able to wear them. I tried them on a week or two before Christmas, then I did again on Dec 26th, and I got them up comfortable :D I was so giddy when I came out of the bathroom hahahaha like mom look!

On other notes, I think I might be eating to few calories per day now, because after the fill I am only eating about 3 meals per day, and it is really hard to fit a lot of protein and stuff in 3 meals. I was actually eating meat for breakfast now just to try and get more protein in.

Thursday, December 27, 2012

after X-mas weigh in

Day of surgery: 127 kg or 280 pounds
Today: 116.2 kg or 256.18 pounds
Gain this week: +0.4 kg or +0.88 pounds
Total loss: 10.8 kg or 23.81 pounds

A slight gain but nothing I am bummed about. I am more bummed about TOM who's lurking round the corner. I thought I did OK during Christmas, although I did eat a bit more of food than I should have. But you live you learn. Now I am going to go see if my lil nephew can't catch his flight today, the weather was so bad last night that the plane could not land at his fathers town so he had  to fly back south, and they are predicting bad weather until after the weekend so hopefully for his sake he can go see his dad, if not he´ll just stay with us until his mother comes south.

Tuesday, December 25, 2012

my band hates ice cream

I have to admit I did eat a bit more than my allowed half a cup today and yesterday. I also had ice cream today and my band still does not like ice cream. I can feel where the band lies after eating ice cream. Even though I eat it slowly.

Well just wanted to check in, now I better go chat with my guests (mum and stepdad)

Monday, December 24, 2012

sore port site!

I just wanted to ask if any of you experienced a sore port site? I had my first fill on Tuesday and I have been somewhat sore since then. Well it kind of disappeared but came back yesterday, I'm hoping it is due to my bra pushing down towards it so am going to change and use another one today. Do any of you get sore round the port for a few days after a fill? I have been trying to follow the rules I was given and have no trouble getting anything down so thats not why. Anywhoots just wanted to put this out there and see if anyone got simular stuff going on

YES only 8 and a half hours till Christmas dinner and about 10 and a half hours till we open the presents :D

The last santa brought me and my family books to read. I got the Hobbit, my son got a book about Real Madrid football club in Spain and my bf is getting a book on seldom used jeep paths in Iceland well that is if he ever gets his bumb out of bed hahah

Again MERRY CHRISTMAS  hope you all have a wonderful holidays

Sunday, December 23, 2012

OMG christmas tomorrow

I can not wait, tomorrow is Christmas. Today we are going to decorate the tree and the apartment. The last of 13 Santa Claus comes tomorrow and that means I get a lil something something. I love Christmas, the food, the family all together, the peace and just all of it.

I have been trying to do good in the food department. I have been eating 3-4 meals per day, I do see some change from the 2 ml fill I got on Tuesday. I have had a few chocolate pieces like 2 one day and one the next day but I think that is ok. First it is Christmas and I am not going to deprive myself, second it is like 10 grams (bf corrected me, each piece is at most 5 grams) at most each so I think it is OK. What is not OK is the fact that last night I ate a sub similar to the Philly Cheese-stake, I only ate about 1/4-1/3 of it and not the bread. Still I could have done better, I have an excuse but it sucks. I was in a terrible mood yesterday, I was almost seething. And for that reason I think I turned to food, I am proud that even though I did, I did not eat much more than I should. I could have but I stopped.

Who wakes up at 8 am on a Sunday!! Me that's who. Damn it I wanted to sleep in but noooo not gonna happen haha so here I am at almost 10 am, already eaten my breakfast and started eying that tree for decorations. Might plant a picture of it later today when we are done with it.

MERRY CHRISTMAS

Thursday, December 20, 2012

last weigh in before Christmas

Day of surgery: 127 kg or 280 pounds
Today: 115.8 kg or 255.3 pounds
Loss this week: -1.4 kg or -3.1 pounds
Total loss: 11.2 kg or 24.7 pounds

Cant say I'm not happy with this. My goal was to lose 15 kg before Christmas but then I did not do any exercising per say. But I am so glad to see 115 something on my scale. It means I am getting closer to my goal of a two digit weight :D 

Tuesday, December 18, 2012

first fill not so bad

I could hardly eat my breakfast this morning, I did not think at first that I was nervous about the fill, but clearly I was. I finally finished it just in time to drive to the town where the surgeon rents an office while in Iceland. Not a minute to spare when I finally arrived, the visit took probable about 5 minutes total, asked my current weight and I asked him bout bite sizes and stuff, then up on the bench and wow is he a pro or what, the fill took less than half a minute or round that. It did hurt a bit, but not that bad really, I´d say it was worse than getting your blood taken but it was so short it did not matter. So now I have 5 ml in my band. And I hope that means I will soon find that green zone. I am on soft foods today and tomorrow then just back to normal.

Cant wait to step on the scale on Thursday :)

toodles, and sorry I posted on the silent blog day, my heart goes out to all the families. I can not even begin to imagine their loss.

Monday, December 17, 2012

I passed! 1.st fill + did 8 km today

OK so I passed that awful calculus exam. I got 70% which is fine by me. I would not say no to a better grade but I am sooo glad I passed and never have to do that again.

As a result I have booked a house in Orlando for the latter half of May, will book flights tonight when I can get my hands on the bf's wallet haha.

Tomorrow is my first fill I hope. I can not wait until I can go at least 3-4 hours between meals not like the 2-3 hours that is the present. I am a bit scared, saw some posts that it can be painful but am trying to be optimistic and take Pollyanna view on this whole thing.

My scale keeps greeting me with such happy news each morning. I wonder when I will hit my plateau. I am also a bit scared of starting to exercise much. I mean I am losing about 1+ pound a week. And I am scared it will run of like butter if I start full on exercising and it scares me because of the excess skin I will have. 

Anywhoots I did 20 minutes on my bike and kept it on between break 7-10 for most of it and I can feel that in my thighs. Those 20 minutes resulted in 8 km or 4.97 miles. I know I can do longer but then the break is more like 5 so I want to try and alternate between heavy and light cycling. 

Think that is about it. Now I am off to your blogs and catching up, been working all weekend and not on blogland. Will post about the fill tomorrow. I so hope he will fill me. Its almost been 7 weeks post op

Friday, December 14, 2012

help, bite size?

Ok so I am still trying to get to grips with this size stuff. I watched on the video that it should be about the size of a dice. But I am not sure if I am eating the right size, so I ask you, how much do you concentrate on the size of the bites? I just don't want to screw this up, so no making a pouch above the band if I can help it.

I usually don't think to much about it because I can usually cut smaller pieces but I was eating a burger (just the lower half of the bread, the meat, cheese and pinapple). I almost finished it all, first time I have eaten so much, NOT liking it, but I have a fill on Tuesday so it should be OK. Anywhoots, back to the sizes. Should I feel it if I take to big of a bite? I actually took a picture of one bite next to a dice hahaha I know a bit weird. So I ask does this bite look too big?




Thursday, December 13, 2012

weigh in + 13 Santas

Day of surgery: 127 kg or 280 pounds
Today: 117.2 kg or 258.4 pounds
Loss this week: -1.2 kg or -2.6 pounds
Total loss: 9.8 kg or 21.6 pounds


I have been MIA. I was at my in-laws and they don't have a good internet reception and no 3G for my cell so I had no internet for a while.

Been doing fine food wise, really need to start exercising and I really should start keeping track on the calories I eat. I seem to forget I have this awesome stationary bike in my room. This morning instead of using it I lay in bed reading.

I am waiting for my grade in Calculus to arrive so I can book the house in Orlando and book a flight. I can not wait to get back to Orlando. This time I will spend whole days at the parks and just take it easy there, not try and fly through it like we did last time.

So I decided to try and see if I could drink soda. It seems I can, I just took tiny sips and it caused my no pain. It was a bit of a relief since when I get migranes like last night I usually take a fizzy asprin with caffeine in it and now I dont have to be afraid to take it cause the fizz wont bug me. Also it means I can drink my almost holy Christmas drink this year.

Last Saturday we had our friends over and that is when the experiment started, I had half a glass of Coke with dinner, and about half a small can of alcoholic apple cider. I have no intention to start drinking soda or that kind of stuff daily. I will only have it on special occasions.

Speaking of special occasions. The first two santa's have just come, that means my kid put his shoe in the window and got a lil something from them. We have 13 Santas, they are not like your santa, ours are very mischievous and basically are old crooks that live in the mountains. The do give children small gifts in their shoes each night starting 13 nights before Christmas, if the child does not behave well it gets a potato instead of a gift. Also the santas mother Grýla is a troll that threatens to eat children if they misbehave haha so yeah icelandic santas are not like yours.

Ooooh and I almost forgot. I am seeing the surgeon on dec 18th, so hopefully I´ll get a fill then too :D

Thursday, December 6, 2012

weigh in & NSV

Day of surgery: 127 kg or 280 pounds
Today: 118.4 kg or 261.0 pounds
Loss this week: -0.5 kg or -1.1 pounds
Total loss: 8.6 kg or 18.96 pounds

I am a bit surprised that I lost this week, just due to me sitting and doing nothing but studying. But I will keep at it haha.

My old way of thinking is has so not left me. After my exam yesterday I really wanted to eat something yummy just to celibrate... well we didn't so yay for me. I did have a square of chocolate last night, but I did not go crazy and want to eat the whole package so another yay for me.

We took some pictures last night, and I have to say I can see a difference. My belly doesn't stick out as it did and wow my face looks a lot slimmer even though it still looks fat so that is a step in the right direction.

Well gonna go do something, like fold laundry and do 10-15 min on my stationary bike. 

UPDATE!

Ok was on my bike for 17 minutes, thats 7km or 4.3 miles for you non km folks. Also according to my HRM watch I burnt 303 kcal. So I am pleased as a button.

NSV #1:  When I am on my bike I no longer see my belly while cycling woop woop. Now all I see are boobs and thighs. HELL YEAH!!!

NSV #2: so I fit into my size 22 jeans that I bought in Orlando in August WHOOHOO. They are a bit snug but not uncomfortable and I do have a slight muffin top belly thing going on. But NO WAY am I taking them off, not only am I reveling in the fact they fit but also my other ones have a hole in the crotch haha



Wednesday, December 5, 2012

Finally

Ok so I am finally done with my exam. I think I have passed but I don't want to say I'm 100% about it just in case. But my gut says yes.

Speaking of the gut, girls the gut is getting smaller. I swear I see such a difference in the mirror. I took measurments before I went to the UK and now 4 weeks after lap band. I have lost 11 inches, 2.8 from my waist, 1.97 from my thighs, the same from my hips and I even lost 1 cm from my neck I think that is AWESOME.

Now its weigh in tomorrow but I am not really expecting to have lost a lot since I have not moved for a week due to extreme cramming, I almost lived at school while studying and am so glad to be home again haha. Next step is to start moving my shrinking butt.

My back is getting better, but ugh grinding these tablets is disgusting, they taste awefull. I think the fact that my bag was around 22 pounds might explain it a tad bit.

I can not wait till Christmas is here. We have bought all presents except mine and my bf's. Total of 31 presents if we include us. It can be a bad thing coming from a divided family. And if this is the only thing I can think of in that case gosh I must have been so lucky.

I´m going to start catching up on your blogs

Toodles bandsters

Friday, November 30, 2012

in pain

I was so afraid of this. I have to sit for hours while studying for my final, and now my back has caved on me. I am in such pain, not really surprised since my bag was about 20 pounds today. I did a big band no no and took one Voltaren Rapid (diclofenak) which is a anti inflammatory medicine and I know we are supposed to stay clear of them but I had no choice. No I am trying my hardest to not take any more but shit this is not nice and I still gotta go to school tomorrow to keep studying :( I am wondering if I should email my doctor and see if it is OK for me to take them regularly for a few days now just to make my exam time and life a bit more bearable. 

Thursday, November 29, 2012

weigh in

Day of surgery: 127 kg or 280 pounds
Today: 118.9 kg or 262.1 pounds
Loss this week: -0.8 kg or -1.76 pounds
Total loss: 8.1 kg or 17.86 pounds

It's been 4 weeks since surgery today. Started eating normal foods yesterday and I am loving it. Still kind of scared what sizes my bites should be but I am just trying to keep them small.

Well I better be off to school and study some more

Sunday, November 25, 2012

protein and water

I am having a hard time filling those 60 gr protein per day some of the time, I am also not able to drink these 2 liters (68 oz) of water I am supposed to. I manage between 1-1.5 liters per day. And my protein intake is between 40-60 grams. I think it might have something to do with me picking foods that are easy to mush and eat that way. I can stop the mushies on Wednesday or Thursday.

Was a tad bit bummed that my weight went up a bit from two days ago, its not much just 0,5 kg (1,1 pounds) but again I think that is to be expected, I have not started exercising and don't think I will until I finish my stupid test on Dec 5th.

Day 3 of 5 days constant work is done. Have to get up at 7 am tomorrow to go to school and then work at 10 am - 18 pm. Will not have any rest until this test is done. I just really hope I can pass it.

Ugh feeling somewhat defeated at the moment, way to much going on, still haven't baked and the Advent is next weekend and tradition calls for cookies and stuff but I will have my head firmly glued in my calculus studies so the bf will have to deal with it or my mum.

Most likely not going to be blogging much other than weigh in until Dec 5th test is over.

So toodles my dears I will see you if I live through this exam stuff hahahaha

Thursday, November 22, 2012

weigh in day and update

Day of surgery: 127 kg or 280 pounds
Today: 119.7 kg or 263.9 pounds
Loss this week: -1.2 kg or -2.6 pounds
Total loss: 7.3 kg or 16.1 pounds

Can not wait for next Thursday to arrive cause that means normal food. I have to admit I am a bit scared to start eating normal food again but I think I can do it.

I was shit scared last night that I would get stuck, I was eating potato gratin with cheese and for some odd reason the small part of cheese I had was not disintegrating enough and it slid down my throat I was so scared I´d get stuck.

I just have to ask about soda or pop if thats what you call it. Am I allowed to have any. Again I got no instructions from my doctor. And I am not talking about drinking tons of it, I am more thinking on the lines of a few sips, because one of my favorite parts of Christmas is drinking the Christmas ale its non alcoholic its just orange soda mixed with a malt ale. And I don't know why but I am feeling really sad about maybe not being able to even have a sip of it. Its kind of like saying no turkey for you on Thanksgiving. Which reminds me HAPPY THANKSGIVING!!

Monday, November 19, 2012

barely awake

I'm blogging mostly to keep myself from laying down and falling asleep. Had to call my mom at 4:30 am this morning well just over two hours ago to come over because I had to take the bf to the emergency room, he had his tonsils removed last Tuesday and tonight it started bleeding so I had a choice, call my mom or wake up the kid. Couldn't think of waking the kid because well he is a kid and would be super worried and also he has an exam at school today.

Now I am just waiting for him to wake up and for the bf to call for me to pick him up, he sent me home after an hour and a half waiting in the waiting room because I am not allowed in the hospital unless I get tested for staph thingy because I was at a hospital overseas in the last 6 months. We apparently don't have this type of a problem in our hospitals and so patients are put in isolation while getting tested.  I just googled staph infection and the first thing I found was Cellulitis which I got while at the hospital so I think I will go and see if the doc will have me tested, I don't want to be kept from more relatives in case of an emergency just cause I might have it. "If red lines develop, that's a sign the infection is spreading and needs immediate medical attention." yup that was me just over two weeks ago, I was on antibiotics which cleared it up but still want to get tested.

Can't wait to go get the bf so I can crawl back to bed and go back to sleep. I think I was a bit stressed about this whole bleeding thing, because I had such nausea and now it is clearing up, so don't want to get the disgusting stomach bug that is going round the country at the moment. Reading about it on FB is way more than enough for me.

See I managed to blog until my kiddo woke and now I can ask him questions for his test. Yup I am an annoying mother that makes her kid read stuff extra well over before tests and then quiz him about it, but hey he is doing sooooo good at school so I must be doing something right, well that and he apparently has a brain that absorbs facts after just one read.

Sorry bout the rant just needed to keep awake, guess I could delete this but I wont

toodles

Sunday, November 18, 2012

I have a confession

I am a Twilight fan! yup I said it, and I went to the movies with my bff and her husband last night. I liked the movie, but did not like the girls that sat behind us and had these major teen fits of laughter when nothing funny was going on.

In other news I am doing good, great even. Eating about 4-5 times a day, I know that is much but I rarely manage to eat my half cup of food in one sitting, but I don't come back and try and finish it, nope I just wait my 3+ hours till I´m hungry again and then eat something. Last night I had chicken in Butter chicken sauce mmm so good. Looked awful but it was the taste that mattered.

Well should get my nose back in the book, have one final exam this semester and it is in Calculus for biology and medicine and it is killing me. Hate integrals, love linear algebra and differentiation. So hopefully I will pass and never have to see it ever again.

toodles

Thursday, November 15, 2012

heaven

I had the best dinner what felt like in forever. I made gullash in brown sauce and potato gratin. I put both of it in the miny food processor and omg I wanted to chugg it not chew it hahaha, not that it needed chewing, was very mushy. Thought I'd put a pic of it here, I ate about half a cup, and also put another half cup in the fridge to eat tomorrow. I was very careful to keep the mush very thin so I had to have extra gravy to use because when the meat cooled it got a bit thicker. To show how small the plate is I put the pen next to it :)


weigh in day and first goal!

Day of surgery: 127 kg or 280 (well it is 279.987) pounds
Today: 120.9 kg or 266.5 pounds
Loss this week: 1.7 kg or 3.7 pounds
Total loss: 6,1 kg or 13,4 pounds

First goal completed!!

I wanted to get to 120 kg and I am soooo counting 120,9 as that hahaha. I was discussing the goals with my boyfriend and am now changing the goals from 10 kg / 22 pounds to 5 kg/11 pounds. So my next goal will be 115 kg or 253,5 pounds

Ooh and I was talking about eating to little yesterday, well that is what it felt like, but MFP says I consumed about 940 kcal and about 52 grams of protein, so it was not really that bad, although I consumed to many carbs I think, 93. But maybe that is ok, MFP says I should consume 165 of carbs so I was above my protein and below my carbs. And I drank about 1,5 Liters wich is about 50 oz. So even though it felt like I ate to little it looks like I ate enough, think it is just little compared to the pre-op eating that confused me.

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

eating to little?

Had any of you a sudden loss of hunger? I am having a hard time today and yesterday to eat enough. I just dont really feel that hungry anymore, and therefore I forget to eat.

Take today, I ate small bowl of applesauce with cream, dont even think it was half a cup. Then for lunch I made a tuna salad and put it in a 4 oz cup (half a cup) and I almost didnt finish it. And now it is dinner time and I am beginning to be a bit hungry and am going to eat that potato.

Do you know circa how many kcal I should be consuming? I got nothing about that from the doctor. Going to look online as well.

scared silly

yup I was totally scared taking my first bit of a mushy type of food. I am making tuna salad with boiled egg in it, and took a tiny amount in a spoon and ate it. I was so afraid it would get stuck, even though I made it rather on the runny side (it is so mushy), but down it went.

I am so happy to be here I would say you had no idea but you do so ;)

Cant wait to eat my potato tonight it will be heaven, I have almost gotten sick of my favorite protein shake and I want to be able to eat that for breakfast so its good to start on something else. And I so missed some texture in my mouth haha

Tuesday, November 13, 2012

going mushy tomorrow

I can no longer live with liquids, so tomorrow night I am going to eat my first mushy food. Yup going to ovenroast a potato and mushy it with butter and sauce. Then I will at some point try out something a fellow bandster told me about, taking chicken breast and mushy it with sauce so yeah I am going to jump the gun like 12 hours early.

In other news, I am feeling a whole lot better, but wearing a bra is still a struggle, so I felt real uncomfortable at work today cause it pushes down on the port site and that is not painful just uncomfortable. I think I am going to call my weekend work and try and change my shift or let this weekend just go, I am not confident that I can make 7 hours at work just yet. I know some of you had no problems of any kind. I think this port site will be the thing that annoys me the most.

My bf had his tonsels removed this morning so we are both going on mushies tomorrow, he is luckier than me because he can eat anything just has to be soft.

So glad this liquid fase is almost over. It was not as hard as I thought but still cant wait to eat my potato tomorrow. I am not joking when I say that the last two nights I have dreamed of me eating some kind of bread. I am a breadaholic. I am going to stay away from bread as much as I can, that will be hard.

I dont have infection in my cuts, I had the shortest doctors appointment yesterday. I went to the on call center and had him look at one of the cuts because it kind of looked like it was opening up, its the one that has been oozing, he looked at it for like half a minute and said I was good hahaha I felt silly but better safe that sorry since no other bandster I knew had any kind of fluid coming from their scars.

Anywhoots, going to bed now, got a long day of school tomorrow and I just hope it wont be to uncomfortable cause no way in hell am I going there with out my bra on hahahaha

toodles

Saturday, November 10, 2012

damn it!

I have to go to the ER tomorrow, not that I am hurt or anything, but because I was in a foreign hospital in the last 6 months it is the only place I can go. I now have this thrush thing on my tongue most likely from the antibiotics, so I guess I need more medicine, really not liking this, but at least I can have them check out that suture at the same time, that one that keeps leaking on me.

Really not a happy camper tonight.

Doing good

Felt my band for the first time today, or that is what I think. I was eating mandarine icecream and I thought I was eating it rather slowly. But when I was just about to finish it I felt this uncomfortable feeling where I think my stomach is. It was not pain rather something like hey! no more kind of feeling.

Cant wait till next thursday when I can start eating mushies. The first thing I am going to eat is a tuna salad with a boiled egg shredded to bits. I have been searching online for lists of foods that are considered mushy, because I can no longer just eat soups and yougurts and so on. A lot of them mention scrambled eggs, so I just put a question on fb for confirmation of that. Also I have read that a lot of the icelanders have just taken normal foods and mushed it to a pulp. So I am a bit confused at the moment. Really would have loved the doctor to mention something on this.

I am extatic to say I see a difference in my face just over a week out. My lovely bf took another set of pics today and when I compared them to the once taken before I left to the UK there is a subtle difference, most noticable round my tummy and face. So WHOOPY!!

Thursday, November 8, 2012

Liebster award

I was very lucky and got not one but two Liebster Awards, and I can't choose which one to do so I ´ll answer both of their questions 


First off lets view the rules of this:
  1. Think of 11 facts you´d like to share about yourself
  2. Answer the questions I asked
  3. Think of 11 questions you´d like to ask 
  4. Nominate 5 bloggers that have less than 200 followers   
So here we go!
 
11 things about me:

1. I love reality crime shows. I just discovered a channel here called ID Discovery and I am hooked. I also tend to eat while watching icky shows, dont know why but I do.
 

2. I have to sort my Skittles to eat them, I often even count them and will eat the odd ones first so that I have the same amount of each color. A bit OCD I know. 

 

3. I am very shy and dont like being round new people or in very big groups, parties are hard for me.
 

4. I tend to make up new words and not realize it, I also debate with friends and family that those are indeed words. Oops.
 

5. I am a googleholic. I use Google so often it is kind of ridiculous. I obsess about things that I should know but don't remember to the point I cant go to sleep unless I Google it.
 

6. I am a hypochondriac. Yup me and my best friend both are. I always think something is wrong if I feel any weird pains and stuff. I "had" brain tumor when I was a kid because I got these stress headache pains in my temples. I also "had" deep vein thrombosis if I felt pain deep in my calf's. I have been this way since I was a kid, why I have no idea. I just try and stress about it on my own or bug the best friend you could ever have my Mrs. Betsý
 

7. I hate the color pink, and for some odd reason I keep getting gifts and stuff in pink, I use them and even like some of them but ugh I hate pink.
 

8. I have changed my mind loads of times regarding my occupation. Since 2005 I have been sure I wanted to become a pharmacist and that is what I am studying now. If for some odd reason that wouldnt work I have no idea what I´d want to do instead.
 

9. I don't eat any vegetables, well hardly any. I am a real fuss when it comes to that category, my poor mum tried her best. I wish I ate them, it would make my life easier. I eat cabbage, but only the green soft stuff (salads).
 

10. I am always hungry, I eat and eat and hardly feel full. If I feel full it will only last about 5 minutes, hope this surgery will help with that. Even tried medicine to help but to no avail.
 

11. I don't like to be unplanned, even though I am a mess I have to have stuff organized long time ahead. And I almost obsess about it, and get real cranky if stuff changes. Don't like changes.


The questions that Jennxaz over at Tales from an Arizona Lapbander made

Favorite job and why?
The one I am in now, I work in a pharmacy, I just love the routine and that not much changes. The customers are great and that also helps.

Favorite food and why?
Hmmm hard one. I´ll say Christmas dinner. Because we only eat in once a year and I am a sucker for tradition. Just ask my mum, she dared to ask what we should eat this year like it was going to be anything other that the last 30 years hahaha.

Biggest indulgence?
Wow I indulge a lot so I am not sure. Going to say my phones. I have somewhat expensive taste in phones and the last two I´ve had cost a lot. I now own a Samsung Galaxy S Plus and love it even after one year.

Biggest fear?
That something will happen to me and I wont get to see my kid grow up and that he'll be without one of his parents.

Favorite trait in a friend?
I can't just choose one thing so here it goes; loyalty, cookyness and someone that tells me to shut up and stop being stupid when I need to.

Worst disaster you have been in?
Not been in any disasters (knock on wood), but I think the earthquake we had in 2000 was the worst thing I have been in, was shit scared it wasn't all that big, think about 6.5 Richter.

First car?
I have only ever had two cars in my name, both of them where Mitsubishi Colt, the first one was a 1989 model and the other 1999 I think.

Feature about yourself you love?
That is a real hard one. I don't think there is anything I love about me, I like my eyes but I dont love them.

Item you are grateful for?
I am so grateful for the internet. Without it I would not have known about the lap band and would not have been able to read all your blogs that are ever so helpful.

Experience you are grateful for?
Being a mom is an experience I am grateful for, because it has taught me some patience which is something I have always had a problem with.

Person you are grateful for?
my mom, she has been a whole lot of help through the years. Even if she did not support this decision at first she has come round now and that is awesome.
 
Questions Tina over at The Band-it Girl made:

Which family member (not spouse or children) are you closest to and why?
I would have to say my mom, as for why I am not sure we have just always had a close relationship, if I am not allowed to say her it would be my oldest younger sister (I am the oldest), we have just always had lots in common.

How do you relax?
Well either by staying in bed reading or watching something on the TV.

Do you have any crazy neighbor stories?
Hmmm not that I recall no. Have been pretty lucky regarding neighbors in my life.

Where do you buy your make up?
I buy mine here and there, I stocked up on a lot of it in Orlando this summer. I dont really use much make up but I do love to have it. Weird I know.

Do you have a good story from either high school or college that you will never forget? Share!
Nope none that I remember. I have always been a loner, at first not by choice but then it got to be a habbit.

What is your favorite moment of the day?
I love the nights, for some reasone I am a night person. I think it is because it is so relaxing. I do my homework and housework at night or evenings.

When you are 70, what is the one thing you want to say you were able to do in your life? Have you done it yet?
 I want to be able to say I finishe my masters and nope I have not done it yet, but I am working on getting there.

What was your favorite family vacation and why?
Think I´ll have to go with the time my son, bf and his sister and family went to Denmark to Löveparken and Legoland.  I was just a great time. 

What is your favorite clothing store?
Think I´ll have to go with Target, like honestly because I had no trouble finding anything I wanted there and it was not so expensive. It will be fun to see what stores I will like in the future.

If you had to leave your spouse and pick a current celebrity, who would you choose?
Thats easy, Ryan Reynolds oh he is drop dead gorgeous yummy


What are your hobbies?
Reading and watching tv shows.

My 11 questions:

  1. If money was no objection, where in the world would you like to travel?
  2. What TV shows do you like?
  3. What celebrity female would you like to look like?
  4. High heels or flats?
  5. What is your favorite exercise?
  6. What is one of your life goals?
  7. What is your favorite holiday and why?
  8. To which countries have you been to?
  9. What would scare you more, vampires or zombies?
  10. What is your favorite healthy meal?
  11. If you could only eat one candy for the rest of your life, what candy would that be and why?
And finally I am supposed to pick 5 bloggers and here are my nominees

Weapon of FAT destruction
BJ and the Bandit
A Fat Wife's Journey to Fabulous
Bandster Momma
Wanna Pet My Port???
 
 


      
      


first post-op weigh in

The numbers after the first week are

Day of surgery: 127 kg or 280 (well it is 279.987) pounds
Today: 122.6 kg or 270.3 pounds
Total loss this week: 4.4 kg or 9.7 pounds

Can't say I have any complaints, just hope those pounds stay off. My first goal is getting below 120 kg or a loss of 7kg / 19.5 pounds.

Oh I also got two Liebster awards so I´ll be putting the answers up here later today :D

toodles

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

crazy hunger pains

How did you deal with these massive hunger pains? If I don't drink continuously I get this crippling pain when I am hungry, not sure how to best describe it. It comes almost every two hours, but I don't always feel like drinking and that kind of gets me nauseous and its a aweful circle to repeat.

Also did any of you experience some oozing from your wounds. I only ask because from what I gather from what I´ve read from the icelandic bandsters have not had that. I am on antibiotic for another problem after surgery.

I want to get my bra on haha how silly is that thought. I just want this swelling to disappear so I can go to work and stuff.

Only 9 more days till I can start eating mushys. Did you guys use a blender to mush normal food or did you just stick to foods that were already mushy?

Ok I´m done with the Q's today, will blog more tomorrow if I dont die from boredom and swollen abdomen.

Monday, November 5, 2012

home sweet home

Finally back at home. Feeling a bit better. Still very sore between the port scar and the one above it, it is very very swollen. My arm is getting better from the swollen vein and cellulitis.

Keep waking up during the night to eat. How was that with you? I woke up every 2 hours last night, and the first time I woke I saw this huge flash of lightning and poof out went the electricity.

My awesome bf has bought tons of stuff for me to eat so I am quite lucky not to need to go shopping.

Well I better start catching up on your blogs now that I am back home.

OOh yeah I´ve lost some weight, not sure if it will stay off or what but since my surgery I´ve lost 3,5 kilos or 7,7 pounds. Wondering when I should have my official weigh in, torn between Mondays and the surgery date wich is on a Thursday.

Saturday, November 3, 2012

day 3

Yesterday and last night were horrible. I started getting more and more hungry, nothing I ate seemed to help. I slept very little and woke every two hours, it go so bad that at 4 am I rang the lobby to see if they could sell me some yogurt that is for breakfast. That kinda helped me but still feel really hungry even after having something to eat, it might be just acid or something but I am not liking this.

And I also have to go back to the hospital today because I have this weird red swollen line going after one of my veins on my left hand. Started yesterday and it is kind of sore so whoopy for me. Can't wait till I get home where I know where to buy stuff that will satisfy my hunger.

Going to walk to a ATM now because these funny taxis will not let me pay with a card. Lets hope I have enough energy to make it.

Update:  Went back to the hospital, got some antibiotics and some gel cause it was a swollen vein and some kind of infection in the skin. My bestie figured that out yesterday, she is really a good nurse. And now I´ve gone to the store and stocked up on soup so hopefully this night will be better than the last.

Friday, November 2, 2012

two blogs in one day

Wow I felt like an imposter about an hour ago. I started feeling like crap, more than crap, I just thought WHAT THE HELL DID I DO. The rumbling in my tummy is quite entertaining. I really need to find a place that sells soups or something. Cause smoothies, water, and juices are not doing it for me. I feel good with a hop cup of chocolate. Just ate my first windeze in hopes that the rumbling will go down. I have walked some more but I still kinda not feel like myself.

Sorry bout the rambling.

day 2

Still feeling somewhat good. Still not much gas pain, it does show itself but it is not so bad that I have taken anything for it.

Went for a small walk to a store near by to buy water and juices. My friend went for a walk to go buy smoothies since I dont feel all to fresh after only drinking water and orange juice.

I hate one of my suture, it is on my left side and I feel it is in a funny place and it hinders my WC stuff sorry TMI. And I was also a bit disapointed to see that the port is quite high, kinda scared that it will mean I´ll feel it, but we´ll wait and see :D I feel oh so funny lying here in my knee stockings to hinder water retaining in my feet and walkin round with out a bra, as one suture falls just under the bra thats a bugger lol

Anywhoots feeling rather good, slept good, woke up every two hours to go to the WC and drink something but I fell back to sleep quite easily. Cant wait to be home in my own bed though

Thursday, November 1, 2012

All done

Well I am all done. I was first in line. I was freakishly not stressed even my friend commented on that.

I am not having any major pains. I have drunk almost 3 glasses of fluids, both water and apple juice.

I just stood up and put on my own clothes, so I am just all coming together. I really thought I would have more pain from the gas, but maybe it will come later. I swear I feel kind of sore where the band is.

Hope I don't get too bad of a reaction from the bandaid they used. Apparently I am allergic to the adhesive. Found that out yesterday after the blood test.

Okidokie think this is enough for now, am still kinda dizzy in between.

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

no sleep tonight

Really don't think there will be a lot of sleeping tonight. 

Am supposed to be at the hospital at 7 am as I went there today to have all the pre op stuff done. 

Apparently my EKG was by the book so that was a relief.

Loved the hospital or what little I saw of it. 

My poor friend has a bad migraine and I so wish I could fix it.

Ok going to go try and relax, sorry I haven't commented on any of your posts, been so busy sight seeing that I have not read one blog since I left home. 

Toodles, keep me in your thoughts tomorrow. Hopefully I´ll be all done before noon.


Tuesday, October 30, 2012

getting nervous

Really getting nervous as the time gets closer. I am going to get all the pre-surgery stuff done tomorrow, that includes getting blood work done. Have I mentioned I hate needles, ironic I chose this surgery then isn't it. 

I spent 3 night in London and it was fun and all that. A bit disappointing about our tour bus, don't think it was the one I found online. This morning we took the train to Birmingham and I somehow feel so much better here, it is less stressful and less people here.

My tummy is not happy. Don't know if it is stress or if it is the fact that we have not been eating so regularly after we came here. About two times per day. I know I know.... So much to do and so little time to do it all. 

Well going to drink my Coke and hope it eases my tummy and not something like me getting sick. Not having that now.

So I will have my blood work and stuff tomorrow, waiting for the peeps of FB to tell me if I need to do it while fasting, and that means my surgery will be one of the first ones because I am a self pay patient.

Okidokies my honeys blog more later and no pictures till I get home as I left my cord at home haha 

Saturday, October 27, 2012

Thursday, October 25, 2012

TTT

1. Almost forgot to do TTT, this day is just not long enough. It is almost midnight, well I still have half an hour left till midnight.

2. This is my last night at home for a while. Going to my friends tomorrow night and then we fly to   London early on Saturday. She has to inject me with a blood thinner courtesy of my surgeon. I hate needles (I know I know about the big needle but what will I not go through to get this weight off me). But my friend just so happens to be a nurse so she can do an awesome job, if not I´ll kick her ass, hear that Betsý KICK YOUR SCRAWNY LIL ASS hahahaha well I could try anyways, not sure I could though lol 

3. We have two big malls here, one is quite old but the other one is just over a decade old. I swear the architect that designed it was a man. Want to know how I know this? Well just look at what it looks like.
Not only does it resemble a male body part, but the first floor is tiled with white tiles, and running the length of the building is a redish jiggly line ending in a circle, so it kinda looks like a semen has been added for good measure.

4. I am running around like a headless chicken today. Trying to remember everything I need before I go to work, cause I am going to work with my suitcase and all. Have an amazing ex GP that prescribed me some pain killers in case I need them. I always get stressed before travel cause I don't want to forget anything.

5. I am list crazy. I make endless lists. I am kind of anal when it comes to organizing. Wish I was that way about cleaning the house, but my awesome bf does most of that hihi.

6. I am getting paranoid about getting sick before the surgery. I really should not be but I am one crazy mother... The only thing I am really concerned about the surgery is the anesthesia. Seen way to many TV shows about doctors and horror stories about not being asleep just paralyzed. See one crazy right here!

7. I am a Logo Quiz junky. That in itself is bad, but I have infected my bf and my kid. The kid is hooked on the football (soccer) one, the car one and the flags of all the countries in the world. While my bf is just hooked on the plain one like me. We were in bed the other night, each with our phones, going "do you know this one". I need help, maybe they have 12 steps for this..

8. I am in pain. I apparently have been eating loads of pain medicine because I have not had any anti-inflammatory since my little oops moment. And my shoulders and back are not quite killing me but annoying the heck out of me. Wish paracetamol had a bit more kick to it. I am bringing one kind of anti-inflammatory with me, just so I can ask him if it is OK to use it. It is a kind that does not dissolve in your stomach rather in the intestine so it does not irritate the stomach. I have a really bad back and I just want to make sure what I can do when it does act up. Which hopefully it will stop doing so often once the weight drops.

9. Think I am going to miss my kid tons, the bf as well but I am used to not seeing him for a while when he goes to sea. But he will have a great time with his dad.

10. We had the first snow show its ugly face in the city today, no longer is it just in the mountains but it has breached our city. I HATE snow. It makes a aweful sound when it is to cold outside and gives me goosebumps. I just want snow during Christmas and Easter, then it can take a hike.
                                                                      Exhibit A
Exhibit B

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

getting very curious

I have this lives traffic thingy on my page, and I am getting so many visitors from Reykjavík Iceland. I wonder who these people are haha not that I mind. Just I don't know of any people I have given this link that live there except for myself. Somedays I am getting over 30 views from here (not including me). So why not say hello people, no need to be shy ;)

In other news. I am nervous, excited, scared, thrilled and many other adjectives that don't make sense. Only a week, well not even a week as it is 8:30 pm here now so wow it is coming fast. Got tons of things to do tomorrow, then work on Friday and off I go to my bestie Betsý and try and get some sleep before the flight.

I am exhausted so I am not gonna blog more today, just curious who all these peeps are (see I speak slang hihi). I am actually thinking of going to bed now, don't think I will make it to 10pm to be honest. I´ll try my hand at TTT again tomorrow

toodles

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Guess what I saw on Saturday night

Yup that is a Christmas tree people. This one drug company has put up a Christmas tree on their property and when I went to school yesterday they had also added a huge red bow filled with red Christmas lights. So I am no longer the only one who can't wait for Christmas to come. Ooh and I also saw that one of my mums neighbor had put his Christmas lights on his balcony already.

On other notes, Jeepers Creepers how the time flies. I am going to the UK in 4 days. Have to admit that I am beginning to get a bit nervous, mostly that something will come up and I wont be able to get my surgery.

What do I need to do before surgery girls? I have taken my measurments, my weight, I need to make some kind of goal list but my head is kind of blocked at the moment. When my bf comes back south I will have to get him to take before pictures. So is there anything else that you would recommend I do? Also have to remember to tell the bf to stock up on juices and protein shakes before I get back home.

Well I really dont have anything to say other that what I have, but I could ramble all day about stuff so I am just gonna go plant my ass in the sofa and watch some TV before I go to work. And try and kill off the butterflies that are taking resident in my stomach.

toodles  

Friday, October 19, 2012

minor/major oops?

Gosh now I am wallowing a bit. Ok so I had this majorly annoying headache before works so I took on of those fizzy tablets we have called Treo (I take them for bad headaches/migraines), its aspirin with caffeine in it. Ok so afterwards I kept thinking didn't I read something about aspirin before the surgery.

Yup I did. In my letter from the hospital it says in instruction nr2 that "DO NOT take aspirin or drink alcohol, during the 14 days prior to surgery".

Major screw up as it is only what 13 days till my surgery. I am kind of petrified to send my surgeon an email asking if I screwed up my date for the surgery. I keep thinking that well it was only one tablet of 500 mg aspirin and the half life in the plasma is only 3.5 hours ( I work at a pharmacy so I always read this stuff online rather than in the instructions you get from you pack, so much more detailed in the medicine info the Icelandic Medicines Agency keeps). And in their info they say use of this medicine should be discontinued a few days before surgery so.. I am like 99.9% sure it is ok. I still feel like I did something wrong by not remembering that :( And I can promise I will SO not use it again until I am allowed, I will rather stay in bed and take the day off work in case I need to.

Seriously need a bit of a internet hugs

Thursday, October 18, 2012

trying ten things thursday

1. Exactly two weeks from now I will be in some pain or experiencing some discomfort. But it will be so worth it.


2. My friend and I are figuring out what to do in the three days we have in London before our trip to Birmingham for the BIG day. All I know is  I want to go to Timberland and buy these shoes. Also I want to go to the wax museum and the London Eye, even though I am petrified of heights.
3. I had to get up at 6.25 am this morning! This was due to my kid going with his school to the zoo (its not a zoo like you would know it. It has cows and all other farm animals they have in Iceland plus some common wild animals like reindeer and foxes). Anywhoots they couldn't take the bus because that would mean the kids had to wake up way before that, so parents had to drive them to the park. I was ever so lucky that a friend of his offered him a ride so I could crawl back to bed and listening to people scraping the ice off their windows because it has started to freeze.

4. I am hooked on watching this British show called Threesome. It is hilarious, it only has two series so far but I sure hope it will have some more.

5. I had this stupid thought while staring at the mirror while brushing my teeth. I couldn't stop thinking "will I be pretty when I am no longer fat". Yup that was pathetic but I cant help to think what will I look like. Last time I was thin was when I was 17 and that was a loooong time ago. This is a picture of me taken in 1998 I was 16 there. Even though I am smiling and wearing a short dress I felt like a humongous fat disgusting pig. Yup if only I knew back then what I know now, I'd never had believed all those lies and hopefully seen myself as I was. Normal..


6. Only 66 days till Christmas WOOP WOOP. Christmas in Iceland starts at 6pm on the 24th. We eat Christmas dinner at 6pm while listening to mass on the radio, then at 8pm we open the presents. Christmas here last 3 days, that's 3 days off from work. Guess you would call it Christmas eve, Christmas day and boxing day, we call boxing day "the second day of Christmas" weird really considering Christmas starts on the 24th.

7. Went to the store today with my mum and our spouses to start buying Christmas things like the Christmas dinner! yup really. So it is in the freezer just waiting for us to devour it, well in my case have a wee taste I guess.

8. Was very efficient today. Booked an appointment for my kid to go to the orthodontist, guess the poor kid needs braces like I did. Then I finally booked an appointment for myself to have that god awefull pap smear think you guys call it. I am officially one year late for it, been so good at going every 2 years but moving put me off my schedule.

9. I have a thing for colored pens and nail polishes. Think it is more than a thing haha. I have a huge bowl filled with nailpolish. I went nuts when I was in Florida this summer, the polishes only cost like a few dollars compared to at least ten dollars here. But the pens are more useful. I just discovered frixtion pens. They are awesome, you can erase what you wrote like it was a pencil. I don't need to have a pen, eraser and then a pencil, just that one pen and obviously I need one in EVERY color right?? even pink which is my least favorite color of all. Even have a Frixtion highlighter.

10. Thinking of 10 things is kinda hard. Guess I should write stuff down during the week to remember what is important. Hope you have a great weekend, I have to work tomorrow, Saturday and Sunday. Yay for me! (so hope sarcasm translates online hihi)

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

weigh in day a bit late

Ok so I forgot to weigh in yesterday so I did just that now that I am up and out of bed haha, well I gained 0,7 pound this week, not really surprised to be honest, last weekend was not a good one and TOM here so I have some fluid on me as well. But all in all I am kinda pleased with the weigh in, could have been worse.

Hope you all have a great day


Monday, October 15, 2012

Still hate mondays but this one was better

Ok so I went extra early to school today so I could sit in my car and call my sons school to complain.

So the complaint went ok, I was so mad I swear my voice sounded funny. I first asked the lady who answered who I should talk to. After telling her why she handed my call to the assistant principle. He was ever so sorry for this to happen, he was quick to say that in these cases there are two guidelines to follow either loan the child shoes from the collection of shoes that noone owns, or take the child to the office and call the parents, this option is almost always used. He said he would talk to the teacher but I learnt from my kid that he is abroad so he wont be told off just yet. I was a bit peeved at the a.p. for saying of course my kid should know he could go to the office and call home. For one thing my son is so shy it would never happen in a million years, also he had just found out his shoes had been stolen so I think he was a bit upset (my kid is very emotional, should have seen him when Sam and Optimus Prime died in Transformers 2 haha) and like he said he didn't know what to do other than to walk home. So... I am going to stop thinking about this as the a.p. sent someone up on the roof to see if they were there and also went to classrooms to tell kids about this. So hopefully the shoes turn up if not well I´ll buy him new ones.

On other notes:

I am going to the UK in 12 days!! OMG this is happening like really happening. I am trying to find my way again after the bf came home. Not helping is TOM god I sometimes wish I was a man. I am craving disgustingly unhealthy foods but I am trying ever so hard not to cave in.


Thought I'd put this picture up here, saw it on Facebook and have to admit I actually had to tell a person in Florida that no I did not live in an igloo, and yes I had the internet. I really really wanted to say, yes I live in a three story igloo and have a huge fireplace in the middle of it hahahaha so lets hope not to many foreigners think this is true. And omg the northern lights I saw last night were nothing like this picture, it was ten times better, were green, white and purple at times and they were freaking crazy the way they moved.

Sunday, October 14, 2012

one crazy mom on the loose

oh I am seething mad today.

Went for a walk with my bf and the kid. Was wondering why on earth he was wearing his old sneakers. Well someone stole his new ones at school. That is not why I am mad. No I am furious because he went and told his teacher that his shoes were missing. The teacher went round the school with him trying to see if they had just been moved. But when they saw that they were nowhere to be found the teacher just left him. So my kid had to walk home in the rain, and it is fall here which means the heat has been 0-5°C or 32-41°F, and that is without the wind factoring in.

So I am going to rip the school a new one tomorrow. Why on earth did the teacher not let him call us to come pick him up or bring a change of shoes? That pisses me off.

Food wise has not been all that good from Thursday till today, TOM is coming for a visit and seems to be bringing carbohydrate longing with vengeance. I want all sorts of unhealthy stuff today :(

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Epic fail

Ok so I have been crazy busy doing this calculus assingment which was due today at noon. We finished it and I handed it in just before the lecture. But I also forgot to eat from noon till I came home at around 6 pm, and I was starving. Asked the kid what he wanted for dinner and he so wanted Domino's and I ordered a PIZZA!!!

I ate 3 slices of a 12" pizza and drank one glass of Coke. I am so embarrassed, I so did not plan on eating any junk food until when ever.

However I am not going to let this get me down, this is what has usually destroyed my diets. I fail and then think well I royally screwed up so why not eat like a huge bag of assorted candy and chips and stuff. But NO more. I am going to drink shitloads of water this evening just to ease my mind, not sure what that'll do but... And then tomorrow I am going to stick to my plan of 3 protein drinks per day and a dinner.

On happier news, the bf is coming home tomorrow!! WOOP WOOP Which means I am in tornado cleaning mode hahaha I tend to remember to do anything other than clean. Not that this place is filthy, its more like you can clearly see someone lives here haha my school stuff all over my study corner and all over the dining room table (we eat in the kitchen). Then I have not folded that huge laundry mountain which has mysteriously appeared on my bf's side of the bed. So tomorrow I'll fold that laundry, get my study area neat and who knows I might mop the floor (no promises).

Leaving you with worthless strange facts, as I am hooked on reading them online during breaks in school, wonder how many of them are true, but these are a few I just found.

fact #1: A 'jiffy' is an actual unit of time for 1/100th of a second (I clearly need to stop saying that)

fact #2: In Philadelphia, you're not allowed to put pretzels in bags according to an act of 1760.

fact #3: In Utah, daylight must be visible between dancing couples (guess they don't dance at night)

fact #4: It's against the law to have a pet dog in Iceland. (This is just plain wrong, I had a dog for years, and most of my family have had dogs since I was tiny. However, it was against the law to own a dog if you lived in the Capital up to 1985 I think, somewhere round that time. Guess you really can't trust stuff you read online hahaha so that makes me wonder even more about some of the stuff I've read.)


See here is my beloved dog, who just has the best home now since we couldn't take him with us when we went to school


haha when I was looking for a pic of my dog Spot up that's his name. I found these pictures I took in the national park, those rocks are called "man and woman" guess which one is the man... I´ll give you a hint, its the one that looks a lot like ummm it rimes with rock all I'm saying...

Monday, October 8, 2012

2nd weigh in day

Loss of the week was -1.8 pounds, which I am pretty pleased about. The Friday weigh in was a bit lower.

So today I was 277.3 but on Friday I was 276,7. But I´ll take what I can get :) well it is almost 7:30 am so I better get my school stuff in the bag and my ass out that door before traffic becomes a nightmare

Hope you all had a great weekend

update:

Whoever thought of having a calculus pop quiz at 8 am on a MONDAY!!! needs to be shot, not shot and killed neccicery just shot in the butt or something so he can only sit on a freaking donut!


This calculus stuff is ruining my face hahaha belive it or not. I was trying to remove my mascara last morning and like usual grab a cotton and the blue bottle, but just as I put in on my eye I noticed it smelled funny.. it was freaking nail polish remover! yup I almost freaked out once I realized that but at least I hadn't started to rub it on like had intended

ok gonna stop now, going to spend the next 4 hours waiting to go to this other calculus class I need to be at and not try to kill people next to me just because I dont drink coffe and still feel like this "see picture below" except in my cup would be a lovely hot chocolate lolz


Friday, October 5, 2012

I love Fridays


I will keep it very short as I have to get to work

  • I love Fridays just as much as I hate Mondays haha.
  • My scale was ever so good to me this morning, lets see how it will be on Monday
  • My bill for the surgery just arrived, I'm bummed because I cant go to the bank today and pay it because I am working till 18:00 so Monday it is.
  • I am so excited this is really happening
  • Garfield and I agree totally about how the week is hahaa
 

Thursday, October 4, 2012

this is so hard

I am such an carboholic. I am resisting with all my might not to go to the bakery and buy me a big cinnamon roll covered in caramel. Like the one on the right, it is my all time favorite to snack on I am almost dreaming of it.


I am not joking when I say I am feeling a bit lightheaded, which I think is because I am not eating the foods that I am used to. That in it self is a good thing, because those foods are a big reason why I am at this weight. I am eating about 2-3 protein drinks per day, and one meal. Like last night I made my kid an me each a beef snitzel mmm it was so good. And tonight I am making gullash kind of stew I think you might call it.

I am trying to cook our food from scratch rather than make processed foods. It will be ever so easier in about 10 days because thats when my boyfriend comes back from his tours at sea. And I have to admit he is so much better than me at all his housework stuff, including cooking. I rock at baking though :-þ

Another food/baked goods I keep thinking about is cupcakes... yup I just recently found a good cupcake recipe and I so want to try it out with chocolate chip in it but I guess I´ll have to save that for some other time. I think I would not be thinking so much about food if I had not set these goals for myself.

I am going to rock this band. I WILL not let potential setbacks bring me down. Nobody is perfect and you learn from your mistakes, I know I might fail at times but that wont define me. And I will just have to pick myself up and keep at it. This is a mental attitude I need to keep to because if I keep doing what I used to do then I will never change and I refuse to be like this anymore. I don't deserve it and my family doesn't deserve it either.

Well that is enough time in self pity, best get back to this calculus assignment we have to hand in on Wednesday, better do it quick as my partner in it is going to Hawaii OMG so jealous hahahaha


Monday, October 1, 2012

no pre-op diet? first weigh in

Ok so now its only 30 days till I get banded. My doctor does not require a pre-op diet. But I have decided to start a version of one any ways. My version will include no sodas, no candy, no or very little bread (might make tortillas). So my plan is to drink mostly liquids during the day, my favorite choice is a whey protein drink, but as my bf is not home I´ll have to cook dinner for the kid and well I decided it would be ok for me to eat dinner. I just don't think I can do an all liquid diet and try and cook a dinner for not even one as the kid often only eats a tiny amount. I´ll just weigh it all and maybe I should take pics of how much I eat as to keep me in line? Think that is a good idea??

I am going to call this my first weigh in well first official one at least and this morning I was 279.1 pounds. I am going to do weigh ins on Mondays since that's what I did today, but after surgery I think I might change it to Thursdays as that will be my operation day.

My weight goals are a bit different than those of you that use the pounds, I will be happy to be in ONDERLAND but I´ll be even more thrilled when I get to 220.2 pounds as that means I´ve just broken the 3 digit kilo barrier, I´ll be 99.9 kilos. Omg I cant wait to see a two digit weight on my scale. But yeah my weight goals will be each 10 kilo mark, thats each 22 pounds.

My doctor finally made that prescription for the blood thinner injection that my surgeon wants me to take before my flight, only took her a bleeping week, and it usually only takes about 1-2 minutes to make prescriptions here as we use mostly electronic prescriptions which I am so thankful for as I hate reading the doctors writing when ever I am working and putting it in the computer (I work at a pharmacy), I swear doctors must have a course at college in how to write so you cant read what they put on it lol

Well best get back to that calculus, my teacher is trying to kill us hahaha I swear, we have an assingment to hand in next week which is a bit long, and then he added 10 old exam questions to do for this wednesday plus 78 problems from the book well those I can devide to two weeks but still a shit load of stuff to do. 

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

fog, cannabis and condoms

hahaha guess that caught your eye. Let's start with the fog.

So yesterday when I got up at 7 am the fog was so thick I could barely see the building next to ours. I´ll put a picture of how the view is usually so you can see how bad it was, the yellow building and the one next to that don't even show up in the fog. I've never seen a fog so thick before. That bad movie I saw once came to mind, the one with the fog that keeps killing people.



On to the cannabis... OK so when I got in my car this morning I noticed a leaf that someone had place on the drain pipe that comes down the building. I didn't think anything of it at first, then after I backed out of my space I glanced back at it, thought it reminded me of something so I drove up to it and took a picture. I am pretty sure that is a cannabis leaf, I refused to touch it, but when I got back home from school I did look a bit closer on it and I think it might be a fake leaf, probably should throw it away in case it isn't.


And last but not least the condoms... So for some reason condoms were being handed out in masses at my college, and I thought it was just so funny to see this one poor thing left alone on a dining table. I didn't take it haha but poor thing was left out of the party.


Other than that I have not much to report. I am still waiting for that doctor to give me a prescription for a blood thinner injection my surgeon wants me to take before my flight to the UK. I had to let her have a copy of my confirmation letter from the hospital and I also had to print out my email exchange between me and the surgeon regarding him asking me to get that shot. So I´ll keep waiting for a bit longer but patience is so not my virtue just ask my mum hahaha or Betsý ;)

Anywhootz only 30 days till I leave for the UK and boy will that time fly by, so much to do in my calculus class yikes I don't like calculus I have to say.

Saturday, September 22, 2012

Icelandic Saturdays

are called candy days. It has become a tradition for kids to go shopping for candy on Saturdays here, it is a really hard tradition to brake, I try to not let my kid gorge out on too much candy but sometimes it can happen. Ok so today I was working so I did not go and buy candy with my kid like usual, but on the way home I picked up a bag of Lay's paprika chips, and Ben & Jerry's ice cream. So how much of it did I eat? about a handful of chips (barely), and just skimmed of the ice cream. I think this will be my hardest transformation, that is to get rid of habit's I've acquired throughout my life. I know it will be hard but what I´ll get in return will be so well worth it. I´ve set myself one NSV for next summer. My kid loves hiking and I want to be able to hike with him to the top on the hill/mini mountain not far from here. Anywhootz, nothing is happening here really, just worked the longest day for a long time, not hour wise but rather that each hour felt like so many more. Where were all the sick people at!! Hope you have a great weekend Sorry about this all not having lines between paragraphs. I dont know why it wont work today

Thursday, September 20, 2012

mmm cake

That's the cake I made this morning. The blunder with the oven did no harm. I love making cakes, even though I wont get to taste them. This cake was for a son of my friends sister, wow toung breaker.

I have not measured my bp today. I think I will do it sometime later, but I think I´ll have to have these numbers for my doc appointment tomorrow. Yeah worring about my bp can raise it and I wouldn't be surprised if it had, that and the fact that I am the most stressed out person I know, cause I stress about nothing and everything.

I had the most humiliating thing happen to me at school today. I had to go to class and was late, will tell why later in this post. Anywhoot, I and a friend are doing a assingment, ok so she choses a spot in the end of the line, so I have to squeeze myself to try and get to my seat. That went pretty ok, but when I was leaving it was another story. I was like a big fat lump of destruction, I was trying to move without anyone noticing but oh did that fail, as computers, books and other stuff were moved by my massive protruding belly. I almost wanted to disappear but instead I kinda ran from out of there.  This is one of the reasons I really want this surgery, I just want to be somewhat normal.

The reason I was late is because I can be ever so harebrained and when I went shopping yesterday I put my wallet (just a tiny sack for my cards) into the grocery bag, then I started tidying up and used those bags, well I threw the trash away and only round noon did I realize I didn't have my wallet, and just then I had this bad feeling that I knew where it was. After ramsacking the kitchen I figured I should go with my gut and yup I went down to the common garbage room, we have a garbage shoot in this place. Thankfully the garbage men had yet to arrive so I could dumpster dive all I wanted, well dumpster dive is not really right. My wallet was in the second bag I checked out. Heart attack averted. Wonder where I´ll place it next time.

toodles



Wednesday, September 19, 2012

drama queen

Is that one word or two... hate not knowing English perfect. Even though I was sooooo proud when I was in Orlando I was on at least 4 occasions told I spoke like a native, well one thought I was from somewhere upstate but that was an ego boost I really enjoyed haha

OK back to the drama queen scene. I have never really had any blood pressure concerns, shut up Betsý :þ ok well I have had them but I have been oh to stubborn to do anything about it. I have been roking between 80-90 in the lower limits and anything above 90 is not good. I refused when my previous doctor offered me to try a small dosage of beta blockers as I did not think my pressure was that high. Fast forward two years and a few pounds extra weight. I felt really weird a few days ago so I thought well lets check out the bp, and to my horror it was something like 150/100 and I pretty much shit my pants where I sat. So these past two days I have been monitoring the shit out of it and writing it down in my lil notebook. Then I like a hypochondriac that I can be sent my surgeon an email asking if me going on meds to control it would affect my surgery. Aw that poor guy probobly laughed himself silly, and wrote me back saying no it did not, and that he did not think that was that high really. But I am still going to see my doc on Friday and practically beg for a small dose of beta blockers because my school stress is coming on and the added stress of having a surgery might be the blame for my sudden increase in pressure. Wow this paragraph is long.

Anywhootz lets leave the drama queen be and focus on something else. Like I am baking a birthday cake for a 7 year old boy. I am doing a Super Mario buttercream transfer and all is going great except my second layer of cake! I could not understand why it wasn't rising like the first one. To my horror I saw that I or the pre-teen must have bumped the turn thingy and now it was not longer on fan but on defrost!! gosh I hope that it was enough to just turn it back to fan for it to rise, will check in a few minutes, if not.. I AM SCREWED!! like with capitals and all, because then I have to get up and bake the second layer in the morning as I dont think my neighbours would be happy about my mixer going on full this late at night. So lets cross everything and hope it turns out OK.

And lets end on some funnier notes like direct translations of some Icelandic sayings/phrases

he speaks fluent english: (direct translation) = he speaks rope slipping English

I am going to kick your butt (something on these notes) = I am going to take you to the bakery

Practice makes perfect = (direct translation) = practice creates the master

If your so shocked you can't really say or do anything, one saying would be in direct translation = I can't reach up my nose

hahaha okies going to watch that cake, just peeked and it is rising WOOP WOOP

Monday, September 17, 2012

I hate mondays

Yup cliche I know, but it is true. Monday's start off with me having to get up at 7 am like usual, but unusual I actually have to be at school from 8:20-10:00 am, studying calculus for biology and medicine which is so not helping. Whoever figured they had to have calculus in the first period on Mondays is an idiot.

TOM has arrived and that is so not helping me with this Monday hating shit, excuse my french. It makes me extra cranky and me not having figured out what to have for dinner before dinner actually arrives did not help either as now I am starving, have a freaking headache thanks to TOM and calculus and ugh I wanna crawl to bed and not get up for ages. But being I am a mom that is not really going to happen, the pre-teen would never accept having to go to bed earlier than 9pm, which is actually earlier than most his friends go to bed.

I am going to spare you guys any more ranting now, but ARG I really hate Mondays, ok not all of them but this one for sure like really really hate it. Ugh I so want to have tons of chocolate and chips and pizza and so on because I am hungry and have no idea what to actually eat.

Can't wait for Tuesday to arrive, it better be good to me or else I´ll flip out. This is not flipping out hahahaha

Hope your Monday was better than mine.

Saturday, September 15, 2012

my love of baking

I love love love baking cakes. I love making them for my friends and family. I wonder if me having the band will lessen that. It really shouldn't as I don't really bake that much now anyways, but I wonder, on occasions are you eating cakes and stuff when invited to family get togethers? Here in Iceland these occasions almost always include massive amounts of cakes, bread cakes (cakes made with white thin bread slices, its special kind of bread, and all kinds of salads in between, can see how they look here), and other goodies. I think I´ll have to tackle that by eating before I go, that is if I won't be in my green zone yet.

Am I a wuss? I have not told a lot of my family about the surgery, only my siblings and parents, and a few good friends. I have forbidden them to say anything about this on Facebook as I don't want some of my other family members to know of this yet. I know some of them won't approve and some are just plain mean and will gossip about it endlessly so I have not said anything. My mom was not very supportive at first, mainly I think because she really wanted me to be able to do this on my own. But she either has changed her mind or she is trying to, because she has been very supportive and not given my any hassle about it. I kinda felt like I disappointed her by going this rout.

Wow its only 42 days till I go to London and then up to Birmingham. I was a bit jealous yesterday as one of the support group on Facebook went for his surgery yesterday at noon, kinda wish that was me.

On funnier notes, wanna learn some icelandic?? Ok lets say sixteen shall we?  six is written and pronounced sex, yup that's right SEX, ok and teen is tán pronounced "town" so here when we say happy sixteen is sounds like this, happy sextown :) hahaha hope you enjoy that lol I have more of those

until later :D

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

102 days, 23 hours and 19 minutes till Christmas

Well thats cause Christmas here is on the 24th, and it starts at 6 pm

WOOHOO!!

As you can see I love Christmas. But this Christmas will be quite different, since I will be banded and will have had at least one fill by that time. I know the doctor sometimes puts a few cc in the band during op so maybe I´ll have some restriction which is fine, because I always gain a lot during the holidays.

There is a tradition here called Advent and we bake cookies in the end of November and eat them each Sunday starting 4 Sundays before Christmas, and even though I am very happy getting the band I have to admit I am a bit hesitant about how it will affect the holidays. I know I won't pig out like I have before, but I still want to enjoy the foods we only eat once a year, just in smaller portions.

So yeah this is where my head is at these days

Monday, September 10, 2012

stupid weather

There is a storm going over Iceland, and it has been so windy today, and I am supposed to attend a birthday party for my stepmother, but I dont dare drive over there. It is a 30-40 minute drive and through a pass that is famous for its strong gusts, and they have been warning people to not travel if it is not neccecery.

Just finished 20 minutes on the bike, I could not do more as I have this annoying headache due to this stupid muscle swelling I have in my shoulders, I don't know the proper name for it in English.

So far I have 461 kcal left of this day and that should be enough for the dinner. Although I really want something warm and disgustingly yummy due to the weather.

OMG did I mention it snowed last night! I so dont like snow, like not at all and this means winter is just like coming round the corner

Took this picture just after 7 am this morgning, so you could see that aweful snow 


Sunday, September 9, 2012

48 days till London and 52 days till surgery

Okies, have been so bad at blogging for a while now. Got my ass handed to my on Facebook by my lovely best friend just a minute ago, so here I am.

I have set up a plan to follow until surgery.

Plan is as follows.
  • drink at least 2 liters of water per day
  • use my stationary bike at least 5 times a week, 30 minutes minimum sessions
  • get my eating habits on schedule
  • drink 1-2 protein drinks per day
  • no more candy after september 30th (should stop now but give us a break :þ )
  • I am trying to lower my blood pressure, it is hanging just under 90 in the diastole
  • use myfitnesspal for keeping up with the kcal and protein intake
  • try and not go nuts on food that I won't be able to eat after surgery, according to my lap-band support group on facebook this is very hard, as most of them gained weight before surgery
Think that is it really, so I am trying to not gain any weight till surgery and trying to lower my pressure a bit.

On other stuff, omgosh I so need to pass this horrific Calculus class I am in now, I failed it last semester and I refuse to do so now, even if that means I have to switch shifts at work and cause a bit of problem there. Because I so need to pass so I can take my son back to Orlando with his dad. So that is my motivation on that.

Shout out to BETSÝ I finally blogged :þ now bugger off dearest hihihihi just kidding love ya