Possible revision to sleeve or just plain band removal

Well this is not where I wanted to be 3 years after my band surgery. But for the last two years I have been dealing with a lot of problems regarding my band. It all started after I had to have it unfilled so that I could have an ERCP procedure done due to complications with my gallbladder removal. Well when we went to fill it back up it just refused to accept the fluid we were wanting to put in it ( I was at 6.9 cc and was so so close to the middle of the green zone) so we ended up putting a lot less, then over a few months we got me up to 5.7 cc if I remember correctly and that ended up with me in super pain for 2 days without the ability to eat or swallow anything and having an emergency unfill on the couch of my surgeons house with his 2 year old running around us (this was Good Friday 2014). Then we tried again to refill and that time it accepted less than with my previous refill attempt and this time we filled it ever so slightly, but then in June 2014 I had to have it unfilled again due to 4 more ERCP´s (still complications from the gallbladder removal). So that summer I was totally unfilled for 3 months. Then we started filling it again and this time I got it up to 6.3 but I was constantly stuck, even just drinking water would sit there and cause me pain, so last May we took 1 cc since I was going to Florida and was scared that I would have more stuck episodes there. Now I am finally back to 6.3 cc and I am still getting the occasional stuck episode, mind you it does not matter what I am eating or how small the bites are. I have an appointment on November 6th to discuss what my options are. I am super bummed since I feel like a failure. I was down to 223.5 pounds when I had to have my first fill and that meant I had lost just about half of the weight I wanted to loose in a year. But since then I have been sitting between 256-264.5 pounds and in 3 days it will have been two years since my first unfill.

Now I am scared that I wont be a candidate for the sleeve and then I am not sure what I will do. Well if I am a candidate that means I cant have it soon since I will have to pay for this one myself again and it will take me a short while to save for it, hopefully I can do it next summer, that is IF I can have it.

Not sure if people still read this blog but I just seriously needed to vent.

5x to the gym = 3847 calories

Cant say I am unhappy with that at all.

I can say however that I am not loving the scale since I started exercising because it has almost stalled, I only lost 0.2 pounds last week and this week I lost 0.88 pounds and I am glad it is going down but I had this silly idea in my head that when I started exercising and doing it real consistently the weight would not fall off but like get the hell off faster but patience is a virtue and I guess I just have to try and be patient because with all the sweat I am dropping in the gym that scale should be my bitch right about now.

I am going to buy a new scale, mine is ancient and even though it is digital it is very inconsistent and can show you way different readings every time you step on it.

This is my week in the gym in pictures. Had a few firsts this week, like the first time I could do the treadmill like my trainer programmed it without slowing it down, the first time my heart rate did not go over 190 which is super awesome. But it is also a week of lower calories burned since my stamina is creeping up, I like that it is getting better but disapprove of lower calories burnt haha guess you cant have it all.

This is so true, I cant understand how anyone can fall asleep so fast. Like my mind is on overdrive when my head hits the pillow, I can remember everything when I should be getting some sleep.

Sometimes I want to throw my chicken salad or some other healthy food in the face of a co-student that went to the burger joint and is eating a burger and fries next to me.

My kid is 14 years old today, like I can not fathom that, where did all that time go. He wanted apple cinnamon cupcakes with cinnamon buttercream on his b-day and I happily obliged. They are so good. I only had two, but wanted all 22 of them.

how many times do you go to the gym?

I am wondering how many times others are going to the gym.

I am going at least 4 times per week, 2 days are with a program in the weight equipment and 2 days others are using air resistance strength equipments, and sometimes I go extra and just do like the treadmill, stationary bike and the cross trainer.

I am just wondering, is there a thing such as going to often to the gym?

worst storm of the winter on my birthday

Apparently the storm on Tuesday was not enough so the weather gods sent us an even bigger one now, it has hurricane winds and lots and lots of rain. The lights are blinking, the neighbours car alarm keeps going off and I keep seeing things fly by my 3rd floor window. And on the weather news yesterday the lady said we should be getting another storm on Monday but on Tuesday we should have a nice calm weather for at least a day she said and it just made me laugh.

I weighed in today, only lost 0.1 kg (0.22 lbs), not a happy camper since I went to the gym 4 times and yesterday I even went for 90 minutes and burned 1077 calories. I was going to go today as well so I would have less guilt over eating my pepper foal steak with homemade bernaise sause for dinner and I will also get Icelandic pancakes (kinda like crepes) that are super thin and served with fresh fruit and whipped cream. But I decided I don´t give hoot (mainly since I can´t go to the gym due to the weather) and I am going to eat it without guilt and just kill it better in the gym next week.

have a nice weekend guys

mid week check in

Went to the gym today but forgot my heart rate monitor so I have no idea how mani calories I sweat of but it is ok I still gave it my all. So far I have gone three times this week and I am not done yet. 

I have an appointment with my surgeon on Tuesday and I am still not sure if I should have a slight fill like 0.2 again or not, going to see what he thinks. 

Tuesdays weather was awful since we had a snow storm. I had to go pick up my kid from school and it usually just takes me 5 minutes to drive there but that day it took over 20 minutes. I secretly love driving in that kind of weather. I could barely see the car in front of me and I had to turn back a few times since small cars had gotten stuck in the regular rout I take. 

When I feel like giving up I view tons of motivational pictures on pinterest and google (shss dont tell)

Who invented Mondays?

That person should be spanked and not the 50 shades of grey kind of spanking either.

I went to the gym today YAY me. I feel so comfortable at that gym and I find it kinda neat.

Not going to blog everyday I think, well never say never but I am trying to set a goal of at least 3-4 times a week. Mostly as a way for me to get things out. I am feeling quite alone these days. My mom moved to Norway last July and also my "sister in law", and now my best friend (lol like BFF) moved to Norway as well and it might be silly but I feel alone. I have my boyfriend and my son but I ugh don't know I'm just weird.

 Mondays workout

Going to the store straight after the gym, starving and in need of protein, 

I had to deal with my weakness for Easter eggs. They were freaking everywhere.

here and back again...

Well here we go again, for like the umpteenth time.

I am very close to the green zone. I am dragging it a bit to go see my surgeon, I was supposed to see him the last week of February or the first week of March but I am going to go after next week. I kinda want to see how this current fill will work with me going to the gym.

I will have to have a slight unfill anyways in the middle of May since we are going to Orlando and I am petrified of getting stuck while traveling and have heard stories of water retention round the band making it tighter. So my surgeon suggested we take a bit out when I go, so if I can loose decent weight with the current fill I dont think I will put more in it. Also I am scared of getting the band to tight, having had 7 unfills last year mostly due to surgeries I had to have but also one of those was an emergency unfill on the doctors living room couch because it went completely shut even with a little fill.

I went and got a program from a trainer last Tuesday and went to the gym 3 times this week, and I lost 4.6 pounds so I am stoked with that and even though I dont expect as big of a loss next week I wouldn´t mind it ;-) The plan is to go to the gym 4 times a week and try get my stamina back up, it was shattered after the 3 surgeries I had last summer and I have had it up to where ever with this low stamina. I want to run/jogg (or crawl) the Color run in June, I just want to do something and get in better shape.

I had gotten down to 235 pounds before all this gallbladder crap started in September of 2013, today I was 259 pounds so I am hoping and praying these pounds go off pretty quickly since they have not been there that long.

So yeah thats where I am at now.